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哇...
今天打针哦....恐怖到...本来没有酱怕的，被他们讲到都变怕了
我还差点哭了下来...真是羞死人....>.<
很痛哦....现在举手都会痛...那个nurse很粗鲁...很痛>.<
haiz.....后天比赛诗歌朗诵了....我都不想去....
我真是交友不慎，交友不慎....怎么每个都是虐待狂？但，为什么虐待的对象总是我啊？
讨厌....
看她酱可怜，又不好意思不帮她....朗罢了麻~~
haiz....很后悔答应了她...
现在又要背稿....cham lo....

华文学会，我真得很舍不得....
可是，我却又有退出理事会的必要...
我很累，当妈妈问我我顾得了这么多吗？
我回答不了...
我给她太多麻烦了....
要她载上载下的....妈妈很累....
况且，我在华文学会里....
并没有一定要存在的必要性....
华文学会还是会很好的....
他的主席，很可爱
副主席，很能干，我从来不怀疑他的能力...
秘书，我知何其中2个比较熟....
都很老实可靠，很可爱，都很瘦小的两个人....
至于第3个，是pbsm的主席，也一定很能干吧！
财政更不用说，爱馨办事能力是最棒的！
其他理事，也都很积极....
所以，我对他们很有信心，他们一定可以的！
我不得不离开这， 我有恨又爱的学会....
他让我累，但却让我体会到，学习到付出....
和他们一起奋斗的时光，我是不会忘记的！！
加油吧！！

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想念过往的掌纹...
想念以往看我的眼神...
想念以前用来哄我开心的伎俩...
过往的你，我一直都很想念
也许，就只有这样的傻瓜，才会如此念念不忘...
也许，只有这样的傻瓜才会记得你的生日，在你离开后，还傻傻得准备你的生日礼物...

可是，这个傻瓜，真的真的很想念你....

闭上眼睛，我选择聆听风的声音...

离开的时候，只听见沉默，除了沉默我还能怎么做选择
别对我抱歉，别种觉得对我亏欠
现在谁在你的身边就对她好一点...

房里，一直回荡着这首歌《原点》
这里，有很多...我要说的话....
对她好一点...我们从前拥有的片段，只是属于你们的未来....

我问我朋友，如果，你爱上一个不爱你的人...你会如何？
她说：“我会尽全力吸引他，让他喜欢我..”...可是，他爱的是别人阿...
我选择放手，不是因为办不到....
是没有必要...离开....我只能微笑...

“你总喜欢对我笑，你的笑明明有毒药
我看见你发出了声，还丢掉了解药
也许你从没感觉到，最好你永远感觉不到
爱上你让我越来越无可救药...."

《爱你爱得无可救药》这是你对她的感情....

呵...冷笑，我也会....
所有人都决定离开我...
Alice,卓老师，Jean, 我爱的人....
剩我一个人...
走的时候，你们都叫我要勇敢，要坚强....
可是，那些都很难做到....

天堂，美吗？
到了那里，你还会记得我吗？
记得我的心跳声吗？
或许你忘了，可是，我还是思念着...
你的味道，你的声音，你的怀抱....
也许，你也没发觉到，我有多么的依恋...
多么的脆弱....
我害怕了....真的....
司仪...我不会当....还被老师骂....
如果，你在我身边，一定会擦干我的眼泪的...对吗？
现在，就只剩我一个了....
我累了，没地方可以依靠....
失眠，没有你的声音，哄我入睡....

原来，没有你，是那么的可怕....
我不喜欢说话却每天说最多的话，
我不喜欢笑却总笑个不停，
身边的每个人都说我的生活 好快乐，于是我也就认为自己真的快乐。
可是为什么我会在一大群朋友中突然地就沉默，
为什么在人群中看到个相似的背影就难过，
看见秋天树木疯狂地掉叶子我就 忘记了说话，
看见天色渐晚路上暖黄色的灯火就忘记了自己原来的方向....

我好舍不得你...

my new year post....

well... actually i shall write this post at 01st January 2010,
and because Jacqueline is lazy, then this post is writen at 8th January 2010....
well, its such a good day, wasn't it?

ok...lets talk bout my passed holiday..
my holiday is at kk during 28 november till 28 december...
my grandpa had gv me a wallet tat he say is a hat....=="
then i put it on my head,,,err,,, is tat my head too big or the hat is too small?
well...my grandpa said:" i say it looks like a hat, but it doesnt use to wear!!"
okok...thankx gong gong~~ ^^
he likes me, i like him too ^^

when 25th december, its Xrismas!!
then we celebrate with bbq~~
my hotdog is...errhem...is...hangus...=="
ok...laugh at me~~
but my sateh looks nice ^^
i eat a lot of my mom's creation...
hoho~~ quite nice
after tat, i just go upstair and take my bath...
y not? bbq is so smookly and oily ...i must get a bath...
when i'm bathing, singing, playing in the bath room, the r singing xrismas song at dowstair...=="
my mom keep on blaming me for my apsent for the "concert"

then 27th December is my grandpa birthday...
and we hv invite a lot of his ex-worker to celebrate his party
my grandpa looks happy tat day...
he talk with his all frens...
and i'hv found tat, all was boys...=="
well...and the conclusion i made is, its doesnt hv any handsome guy there...=="

i'hv go shopping with jean too~~
at 1 borneo...
she's likes to buy those bra more i think =="
all bra she go taouch...and place it on her body
or picit them ==" wat the...

and this was my holiday...
then i gonna talk bout my status in opening school

mostly all of my teacher hv change!!
sejarah change to teacher Samlia....well...no comment for her...
math change into Sir Ahmad Yaya...
he's teaching us like class khas...=="
down sindrum...TT
he teach very slow...qiute boring...
keep on talkng kembang kembang... its nothing funny, k?
and our science teacher change to teacher Lau ... she's some scary...TT
erm...my malay teacher is teahcer suhaidi...if i doesnt forgot her name ...
she's quite small...^^
and art is teacher donno wat name...tat tall tall tat....
he said:" ur class really special, not same as other class. other class will make me sakit kerongkong, but ur class make me sakit pipi..."
tu lah!! laugh a lot...beligood
haha...
but all teacher change just english teacher and geografi teacher doesnt change TT
my English teacher...haiz...
Jacqueline, ur english paper 1 is weak u must get more exercise!!
haiz....TT

its gonna to be change...

well well... i doent think tat time is as the life brief candle...
pass slowly? no way!
its just looks like opening school yesterday, but its already holiday now...
but the important thing is the XRISMAS IS COMING SOON!!
what the... its too fast...
i just go for decorate the xrismas tree, all for the xrimas day in church today...
the tree tat i made with auntie hv been placed at the front door!! hehe....
the tree had tied a lot of ribbon, and hv some expensive jingle-bell~~
but its take a lot of time to complete it...
me and auntie start making the tree, and decorate the tree at 9.30a.m ,but we complete it at 3.29p.m.
but, i've back to my 舅婆's house at 11.45 for taking my lunch...but those auntie and others still making the tree....sorry auntie, i'm getting rest, hehe...
whatever, I LIKE XRISMAS!!
but last year i doesnt here when xrismas...
and this year will be the same....damn==
but, i still like xrismas^^
this few time, Alice hv teach me to play the keyboard...
but my keyboard the second day i buy alr rosak!!the sound so bad...worst....
so i'hv go to the church practice, continue our lesson...
but finally....i found tat myself...my finger......is too SHORT!!
WHAT!!! mama!! how come my finger so short?
oh lord, can u make my finger longer? so i can play the piano well,can? please.....@@

these was my holiday, is it colourful? erm...i think yes^^ because I LIKE XRISMAS
the time is pass day by day, the day i leave is near and near....

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我...好像笨蛋...
什么事都做不好似的
问我，我为什么存在？
....我不知道
我，既不漂亮，不聪明，画画得不好，歌唱得不好，演讲...也都不在我手中了....
我，就只能，就只能走妈妈选定的路
要上大学，要文凭....要一切的一切....
是 我想要的吗？
我...不知道

舞台，是一个我从来不敢奢望的梦...
但偏偏，却让我有机会站在上面
让我迷恋，让我无法轻易忘记
可是，上天又在一次和我开玩笑
因为舞台，遭到朋友的背叛
赫...可笑...不管我多么努力
最可笑的不是尼达不到梦想，而是梦想就在你身边，而你无论怎么抓也抓不住....
哈...我不允许在台上，有任何的过失..
演讲，我不允许忘稿，不允许舌头打结
唱歌，不允许音调不稳，不允许走音
可是....这是否太难完成了呢？
为什么，我就是那样？

我不漂亮...
都有人那么说，可是就算别人难看
也不会那样说出口吧？
而我，却要忍受他们对我的批评....
我难看....我不怪你

我好像，一点存在的理由都没有也...
呵呵....我没资格再谈我的未来，我的梦想了
这一切，离我都太远了
紫薇，会到新加坡念书，会和他姐姐一样出色吧！
jean, 想当医生
罗以惠，想当歌星，明星
他们，都在为自己的理想，梦想前进着
而我....
已经没有了....

Jacqueline....抱歉，我做不了和你以前那样
我恢复不了习扬说的自信的笑容...
恢复不了，启贤得开心果
一切的一切，都回不来了
我已经不存在了
以前的我，已消失得无影无终了
很抱歉....让你们失望了
对不起...

你的回忆不是我的

我的回忆不是我的歌词 海鸣威 - 我的回忆不是我的 (粤语)

伤心的总会任性
灰心的总会用气力
将最好的过去 将最多的细碎
锁到属于你的眼睛
失恋的不够耐心
失恋的不信是注定
于最黑的世界
于最光的刹那感动
属于你的气息
即使很多一起过的
想起的通通你的
为着是浪漫的爱情
通通都可再见但承诺可再听
什么可不变色 OH baby```
当晚与你记住蒲公英
今晚偏偏想起风的清劲
回忆不再受制于我 我承认
回忆也许你的
当晚与你记住流水声
今晚站在大地自己倾听
难道送别你 回头总是虔诚
谁能怪我 总是太感性
海鸣威 - 我的回忆不是我的 (粤语)
music...
失恋的都有惰性
失恋的都记住约定
当理想的世界
当理想的刹那
因爱 无分你的我的
即使很多一起过的
想起的通通你的
为着是浪漫的爱情
通通都可再见但承诺可再听
什么可不变色 OH baby```
当晚与你记住蒲公英
今晚偏偏想起风的清劲
回忆不再受制于我 我承认
回忆也许你的
当晚与你记住流水声
今晚站在大地自己倾听
难道送别你 回头总是虔诚
谁能怪我 总是太感性
当晚与你记住蒲公英
今晚偏偏想起风的清劲
回忆不再受制于我 我承认
回忆也许你的
当晚与你记住流水声
今晚站在大地自己倾听
难道送别你 回头总是虔诚
谁能怪我 总是太感性


*好好听~^^但女音方面似乎高得有点离谱....

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每次，自己一个人会想到很多东西
人生哲学？我的未来？友情？亲情？爱情？不公平？....一大堆
尤其是在车上，文康紫薇就知道，我坐车看窗外的
也许是一种习惯，也许是一种思念...
生活中，真的有许多不公平！！
昨天，妈妈抓到一只老鼠（用老鼠笼，不用猜了，就是因为他偷东西吃才会被妈妈抓得）
所以，妈妈把他拿到屋外
要晒死他...很可怜
我拿我的鸡蛋喂它咯...
谁知昨天晚上下雨，忘记把它拿进来，早上他冷到变圆了！！
其实，他也不是有心要偷东西次的麻
都是人类回了森林，他们才会出来的啊！
可是，却要弄死他们， 很可怜叻....
可是他很象很喜欢吃cookie^^....
我给他吃了很多，幸亏最近没什么太阳^^

michael jakson 也很可怜...TT
the king of pop 叻~
haiz....人总要付出代价
好好的假期，又要去补习，又要回学校
开会，kh, folio....haiz....
不知这次又要开什么会...
又要怎样跟老师交待？
我的脑袋啊！你好可怜哦....
在家，真的不想去想那些永远做不完的事...
没得看电视。。。damn...
电脑是我唯一的娱乐，但是...
on msn...没有陪我聊天的！！
=='' 无聊....
结果，又跑去跟老鼠聊天...
隔壁邻居都讲我傻的....（鬼都认为你傻啦，跟mickey mouse 聊天--")
haiz....世界不同咯
我表妹都会着靓仔....才1 年级叻...
haiz....去看我的mickey mouse lo....没人理我的...haiz....

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哎哟...
我很像真得很久没更新我的部落格勒...
而且，我也懒惰写散文，小说的
应该说，我没这个天分吧~
嘻嘻><'

昨天啊，
坐在我前面的同学，
没错，还是和以前那样 喜欢打架！！
不过，这次大得比较可爱，哈哈..还是说比较搞怪吧！
当A 在写字时，B不知和他说什么
然后A就把头撞他的头...
自然，我们笑到.....
B不甘愿，又拔A的头发
第二次，B又用头撞他
这次， A避开了
然后，举起一支手指， 摇啊摇，nonono~
真有他们的...

不过，想想有这样的哥哥或弟弟在家多好啊~
方他们在一间房里，
日间夜间，
我们的生活， 自然就不会无聊了！
天天有戏看！哈哈！
不过，即使这样， 我还是不愿承认他是完美！！
我不信人没缺点咯！
嘻嘻...

最近，被人骗...
感觉不是很好...
为什么要骗人呢？
我又没骗过你...
如果说，你真的缺乏一个聆听者，我很乐意奉陪
可是，不要把我的善良，用成你的把柄！
不要编一大堆故事,说别人的不是
那时你女朋友， 难道要这样羞辱她吗？
也许你会成功博得别人对你的同情，
但你只是在侮辱着你自己，
试问，如果你女朋友知道后，她会有什么感受？
被自己最信任得人伤害，有多疼你体会得了吗？
废物！你是我第一个叫废物的人！
我不介意把废材也用在你身上
我不是一个会用很粗的语言和别人说话的人，
但我真得很希望你不会再让我说出这种令人作呕的话了!

《蓝恋》

每当黑夜酱要来临的时侯，
我都比它先闭上我的眼睛，
因为我害怕黑暗中孤独的自己。

每当白昼即将到来的时侯，
我比它先睁开我的眼睛，
因为我希望能够看到梦中的你。

在手心写满你的名字，
沉默是你的掩饰，
我只能学者矜持，
去面对你佯装的素不相识。
没有美丽的语言来诠释，
我们这凄凉的故事，
傻傻地埋藏那爱字，
平静地释怀我的无知。

没有一片雪来冻结心中的痴，
让感动停留在那一页你写给我的诗；
没有一楼光融化倔强的顽石，
我的心早已被爱的潮水浸湿；
没有一片叶来记录彼此的心事
然后它慢慢沉沦最后随风走失；
没有一颗流星永远不会消逝，
让许愿树下的我多一些等待的坚持...

the saturday in my holiday~~

well...my holiday really a boring holiday..
and i was promise my mom to go with her for 徒步 at Saturday..
and the 客家公会 was decided to go to the 发誓山，at Tingkayu...
i sit in the car for more than 2 hours for the journey..
haiz..so lame...==

when we reach there..wow!! its raining!!
yeah!! no need to walk! just go there and eat!!
hehe...yummy...

photo will upload soon...

enjoyless holiday..

haiz...wat holiday...
when holiday i wan to think about the dramatic composition!!
oh man!! how come my holiday, JACQUELINE' s holiday like this... how come?
so lame...
those form 2 students...ask until beg also dont wan to take pert in it..
make me been throw into the competition.. so bad...
and make me write the scenario again..
haiz...some scare if they dont accept my scenario...how?

haiz...i really don wan to act la...
haiz...
don wan woh, teacher...
pls...
dont scold me if i doesnt done it as well as u wanted...
sorry teacher...
i really really doesnt noe about this type of thing...

oh man....my brain is gonna bom...
haiz...others always ask:'hey! how ur scenario? is it finnish? y doesnt u finnish it? its alr no time left!'

My god...help me pls..

the first friend i met at the camp~~

^^ the friend that i hv met at sandakan camp...
from kk, call 黄宇璇
we're in the same room, hehe^^
eventhore our relationship was short...
but i noe tat we kept in the heart is enough...

find a nice song^^

降落伞

我闭上眼睛 倒数五四三二一
纵身的跃进
浩瀚的未知 双脚悬着的畏惧也没关系

我吸一口气 展开双臂稳定自己
下定了决心
爱情很美丽 我在远距离欣赏这幅风景

明知道将安全的着陆目的
却在我摇晃中我心神不宁

没有你我丧失信心 垂直掉下去

我的爱就像是降落伞
只能义无反顾的飞翔
想念是狂风无法抵挡
束手无策的飘荡

我的爱就像是降落伞
勇敢的我在空中 绽放
请给我力量 空降你的身旁
爱从天而降 守住这个地方

when i was lost...

are the love really forever?
wel... i really so defficult to belive , sometimes..
sometimes, when my fren met a mistake, they'll quickly find me or call me...
tats make me happy too...
but...
when i'm happing mistake...
i donno who i should called and find...
so bad...TT
when they say freind forever!! i really really happy while hearing..
but when they hurt me, lie me, i really really cant belive anymore...

why?
bcz my heart was broken...
i really donno wat the friendship are...
why i cant hv a true freindship?
why when i belive someone else but will getting hurt again?
why i can help them but when i need help, i donno who should i find?
tell me why!!
why should my life suppose to be like tat?
oh god...are u hear me?
if u hear me, pls gv some respond to me, pls...
how many times i cry myself in a closely night...
i really scare...
who will gv me a hug when i was hurt..
who will gv me a tissu when i was cry..
who will care for me when i was scare and lose...

我的自己

想说...今天风来了吗？
.....

每每的不开心
总会上到建筑物的最顶层
那里的风最大
至少...可以给我...无人给过我的安慰...
眺望远处的风景...
也是我会做的事...

也许，这是我爱风的原因吧...

我问我自己...
我有什么？
我...什么也没有...
只有一颗，自3岁起就开始受伤的心
直到现在...14岁...已破烂不堪...
那棵小小的心灵，跌得浑身是伤
却没有人给过任何安慰，扶我一把
我自己爬起来
把自己封锁起来...
我以为，我可以不再相信任何人...
我可以不用再受伤..
可是....
我被友谊伤害...被我信任的人一次一次地伤害...

我无助地哭泣
久而久之....
我发觉....
我的不妥...
那天回来....带着破碎的心
回家...却被妈妈骂， 叫我别慢手慢脚...
我尽然笑...我没有表情...
只在自嘲我自己的命溅

你们尝过当你在众人面前哭泣时
你的朋友在你面前快乐地谈笑吗？
我的伤心，我的心碎...对于她们来说，
是美国发生的事，与她无关
好痛....

我受的委屈
我说不完
我的心...
当我最落魄，我是多想有人陪我度过...
给我安慰
我多想有个肩膀给我靠一靠
但是，这么多年来
只有墙角知道我的心酸
只有漆盖给我安慰

只有风...
知道我的声音....

yesterday when BM, no cikgu yusof..haha...at first so happy de...but later the new teacher, Angus(if i don spell wrong) came to our class, adn he said, he will be our BM teacher ganti cikgu yusof....huh...don wan la....heiyer...then tat Angus called us to introduce ourself... then he ask for our ambition also...when its my turn, i really donno wan to say wat lo, my ambition all very ganjil de, like victarinarion, 心理医生...see... how i tell him woh, later he also donno wat i'm talking about....then i said donno to him.. actually i hv ask a gil tat beside my, Lyiana to think a job for me, ask her wat ambition is more suitable for me.. but she said, "pramugari la" wat!! oh men...how can owh... i cant be a peamugari la, i think... pramugari must hv a nice face, body, and height de....i think i cant lo...but she said me can wah...haha....

when turn Mohammad, he said he wants to be an engineer, then Azlin talled him, he be a PENJUAL TEMPEN better, hahaha...i cant imagine how Mohammad sell his tempen." Tempen Tempen, Tempen Mohammad! buy 1 free 1, very cheap, very cheap!~" haha....the Soon is the 1st one introduce herself, she said," cita-cita saya ialah menjadi seekor..." "hahhahaha....SEEKOR!" laugh Alfazul loudly....

This was our class, noicy, and noughty... haha...

Growth....a poem for the friend which i will lost sonn...

O who will walk a mile with me
Along life's merry way?
A comrade blithe and full of glee,
Who dares to laugh out loud and free,
And let his frolic fancy play,
Like a happy child, through the flowers gay
That fill the field and frienge the way
Where he walks a mile with me...

And who will walk a mile with me
Along life's weary way?
A friend whose heart has eyes to see
The stars shine out o' er the darkening lea,
And the quiet rest at the end o' the day,-
A friend who knows, and dares to say,
The brave, sweet words that cheer the way
Where he walks a mile with me...

With such a comrade, such a friend,
I fain would walk till juorney's end,
Through summer sunshine, water rain,
And then?- Farewell, we shall meet again!!


Herry Van Dyke

Michael Jackson leave.....

haiz....poor Michael...actually, i noe he is not really bad, he just like children bcz of his father... but y those media wan to gv comment? ppl cant take care for kids if they not their child? they scold him bian tai...make him beng kui liao....Then wont get out from his house...haiz... he just only 50 years old leh... and he was the super rock star tat broke the record... 1970, he broke tat record and now wont hv any artis can broke it yet.... but now he alr pass away....很可惜...

黄河也救不了我...

heiyer...很讨厌妈妈的哦..乱乱讲人家，我又没有讲那个哥哥很靓仔，是那个auntie讲，妈妈却跑去跟他讲， 我将他很靓仔，玩也不要玩酱大啦...弄到他不会讲话了，还脸红tim...弄到我几羞哦...人家真地以为我对她有意思酱...然后今天sms他，问他病到怎样，妈妈又讲我喜欢他，关心他，是人都知道，我无论对男生，女生，在字眼里，都会比较亲切..妈妈酱讲，我又想到他会不会再记起上次的事...真地以为我喜欢他...我要怎样解释？跳到黄河都洗不清拉~是不是先，将尴尬的东西，玩到酱大，真得很想害死我....