enjoyless holiday..

haiz...wat holiday...
when holiday i wan to think about the dramatic composition!!
oh man!! how come my holiday, JACQUELINE' s holiday like this... how come?
so lame...
those form 2 students...ask until beg also dont wan to take pert in it..
make me been throw into the competition.. so bad...
and make me write the scenario again..
haiz...some scare if they dont accept my scenario...how?

haiz...i really don wan to act la...
haiz...
don wan woh, teacher...
pls...
dont scold me if i doesnt done it as well as u wanted...
sorry teacher...
i really really doesnt noe about this type of thing...

oh man....my brain is gonna bom...
haiz...others always ask:'hey! how ur scenario? is it finnish? y doesnt u finnish it? its alr no time left!'

My god...help me pls..

the first friend i met at the camp~~

^^ the friend that i hv met at sandakan camp...
from kk, call 黄宇璇
we're in the same room, hehe^^
eventhore our relationship was short...
but i noe tat we kept in the heart is enough...

find a nice song^^

降落伞

我闭上眼睛 倒数五四三二一
纵身的跃进
浩瀚的未知 双脚悬着的畏惧也没关系

我吸一口气 展开双臂稳定自己
下定了决心
爱情很美丽 我在远距离欣赏这幅风景

明知道将安全的着陆目的
却在我摇晃中我心神不宁

没有你我丧失信心 垂直掉下去

我的爱就像是降落伞
只能义无反顾的飞翔
想念是狂风无法抵挡
束手无策的飘荡

我的爱就像是降落伞
勇敢的我在空中 绽放
请给我力量 空降你的身旁
爱从天而降 守住这个地方

when i was lost...

are the love really forever?
wel... i really so defficult to belive , sometimes..
sometimes, when my fren met a mistake, they'll quickly find me or call me...
tats make me happy too...
but...
when i'm happing mistake...
i donno who i should called and find...
so bad...TT
when they say freind forever!! i really really happy while hearing..
but when they hurt me, lie me, i really really cant belive anymore...

why?
bcz my heart was broken...
i really donno wat the friendship are...
why i cant hv a true freindship?
why when i belive someone else but will getting hurt again?
why i can help them but when i need help, i donno who should i find?
tell me why!!
why should my life suppose to be like tat?
oh god...are u hear me?
if u hear me, pls gv some respond to me, pls...
how many times i cry myself in a closely night...
i really scare...
who will gv me a hug when i was hurt..
who will gv me a tissu when i was cry..
who will care for me when i was scare and lose...

我的自己

想说...今天风来了吗？
.....

每每的不开心
总会上到建筑物的最顶层
那里的风最大
至少...可以给我...无人给过我的安慰...
眺望远处的风景...
也是我会做的事...

也许，这是我爱风的原因吧...

我问我自己...
我有什么？
我...什么也没有...
只有一颗，自3岁起就开始受伤的心
直到现在...14岁...已破烂不堪...
那棵小小的心灵，跌得浑身是伤
却没有人给过任何安慰，扶我一把
我自己爬起来
把自己封锁起来...
我以为，我可以不再相信任何人...
我可以不用再受伤..
可是....
我被友谊伤害...被我信任的人一次一次地伤害...

我无助地哭泣
久而久之....
我发觉....
我的不妥...
那天回来....带着破碎的心
回家...却被妈妈骂， 叫我别慢手慢脚...
我尽然笑...我没有表情...
只在自嘲我自己的命溅

你们尝过当你在众人面前哭泣时
你的朋友在你面前快乐地谈笑吗？
我的伤心，我的心碎...对于她们来说，
是美国发生的事，与她无关
好痛....

我受的委屈
我说不完
我的心...
当我最落魄，我是多想有人陪我度过...
给我安慰
我多想有个肩膀给我靠一靠
但是，这么多年来
只有墙角知道我的心酸
只有漆盖给我安慰

只有风...
知道我的声音....

yesterday when BM, no cikgu yusof..haha...at first so happy de...but later the new teacher, Angus(if i don spell wrong) came to our class, adn he said, he will be our BM teacher ganti cikgu yusof....huh...don wan la....heiyer...then tat Angus called us to introduce ourself... then he ask for our ambition also...when its my turn, i really donno wan to say wat lo, my ambition all very ganjil de, like victarinarion, 心理医生...see... how i tell him woh, later he also donno wat i'm talking about....then i said donno to him.. actually i hv ask a gil tat beside my, Lyiana to think a job for me, ask her wat ambition is more suitable for me.. but she said, "pramugari la" wat!! oh men...how can owh... i cant be a peamugari la, i think... pramugari must hv a nice face, body, and height de....i think i cant lo...but she said me can wah...haha....

when turn Mohammad, he said he wants to be an engineer, then Azlin talled him, he be a PENJUAL TEMPEN better, hahaha...i cant imagine how Mohammad sell his tempen." Tempen Tempen, Tempen Mohammad! buy 1 free 1, very cheap, very cheap!~" haha....the Soon is the 1st one introduce herself, she said," cita-cita saya ialah menjadi seekor..." "hahhahaha....SEEKOR!" laugh Alfazul loudly....

This was our class, noicy, and noughty... haha...

Growth....a poem for the friend which i will lost sonn...

O who will walk a mile with me
Along life's merry way?
A comrade blithe and full of glee,
Who dares to laugh out loud and free,
And let his frolic fancy play,
Like a happy child, through the flowers gay
That fill the field and frienge the way
Where he walks a mile with me...

And who will walk a mile with me
Along life's weary way?
A friend whose heart has eyes to see
The stars shine out o' er the darkening lea,
And the quiet rest at the end o' the day,-
A friend who knows, and dares to say,
The brave, sweet words that cheer the way
Where he walks a mile with me...

With such a comrade, such a friend,
I fain would walk till juorney's end,
Through summer sunshine, water rain,
And then?- Farewell, we shall meet again!!


Herry Van Dyke